My Sexual ID: Not A Simple Answer

I know there has been a lot of talk about Sexual Orientation both in the news and on social media. To a lot of us Greymuzzles we for the most part believe this subject is over done, making more of a what should be a simple answer.

I really wish it was that simple for me. It seems everyone in my entire family said I was straight and that was it. In fact I could not even talk about it to even my brother. He just said I was straight as he looked through gay porn. Really that is not even a joke. I believe my late brother was a closet gay. By the way he spoke and remarked about certain things. Like some guy having a fine ass, and what was said after would make anyone think he was gay. But yet he said he was straight, while refusing to look at photos of naked women.

Me I call myself Asexual because I am in limbo as I really don’t know. If I am straight, gay or bi, or one of more than a few dozens things I have seen online. I really just don’t know. I have dated a few times and frankly they all ended in disaster. For the record they were all women. But also I am not usually that clumsy.

Anyway it’s been 10 years since my brother died and I am living alone. It also allowed me to thank, about what I tend to be attracted to and that itself is not a simple answer. In fact it is both sexes, I tend to think what a certain body part feel in a certain place or what it be like to hold it.

I will be if you are gay and screaming that I am one. I have no doubt.

Maybe if time and circumstances allow it I might try a gay relationship. But meanwhile it has to wait as the whole thing makes me 100% uncertain about it all.